Alexander Technique Articles:
'The Personal Account':
A personal account of a three year Alexander
Technique teacher training course.
Part 2- Others see us more clearly than we see ourselves:
Little by little the teachers started to teach
me what I had signed up for – to teach others how to
do it. I started to put my hands on the teachers and senior
students, but everyone continued to ask me the “Do you
know you’re about to…?” questions, just
as before. I still had to admit that I couldn’t really
tell if I had just contorted myself in the process and was
starting to feel uneasy that people could see patterns in
my way of doing things that I was unaware of unless I was
shown something in a mirror.
Rather unclear as to the significance of these ‘habits’
within the context of training to be a teacher, I became more
and more confused as to what was going on. The teachers and
my fellow students were more severe on me now, and often accused
me of making them stiff, or holding their breath! It was really
frustrating because all I wanted to do was practice moving
them around, so I would be really good at it by the time I
qualified and started teaching.
It started to dawn on me that everyone kept giving me the
same message – pay attention to what you are doing to
yourself whilst you do something. I would experience brief
glimpses of this, and be aware of the habits that everybody
else could see so clearly, but to me they were so familiar,
and felt so right that, left to my own devices, I would instantly
resort to my old automatic habits to get things done.
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